Big Fish in a Small Pond

"Y'see, most men, they'll tell a story straight through— it won't be complicated, but it won't be interesting either."

A quote from Big Fish, one of my favorite movies of all time. 

Whenever I feel like my life is sinning out of control, that I can't seem to comprehend anything anymore and I can't function, can't think, can't breathe, I turn to a film that I relate to so much. In one scene, Edward Bloom compares himself to his son, saying they both storytellers. His sons writes them down, while he speaks them. I am a story teller.

I love writing, and I love sharing my stories with people. If you're my friend, you know this to be true. I find some of my stories so entertaining, and I am always talking about my experiences. I think that's why I love this movie. I exaggerate, yes, but only for the good of the story. I want a life worth speaking about, worth writing about. I want to be known for what I've done, and Iw ant people to enjoy my stories, and to crave more.

As I watch this, I relate to so many quotes in the story, but one in particular stands out to me right now. 

"And if I were to end up here, I'd consider myself lucky. But the truth is, I'm not ready to end up anywhere."

As my time in college comes to an end, I find myself staring at multiple roads and can envision multiple futures I could have. Some involve a life settled down, another involves a life of travel and ambition and never being in the same place twice. I have decisions to make, and I know they can change, but right now I feel so much pressure in my life. Truth be told, I'm not ready to end up anywhere, or with anyone. I am me, and right now I'm content with my life and I'm really looking forward to my future.

I'll admit, I'm a hopeless romantic, but I know in time I'll find love, and I know in time that my life will play out in exactly the way I intended it to. I'm leaving things up to fate, and just hope that everything turns out great in the end. It's time for me to write more stories, to experience more things to write about. I need to be comfortable with myself before i can be comfortable with anyone else, and I'm looking forward to that. And when I'm old, I can look back on my life and smile, and know that I did everything right.

"The man tells his stories so many times that he becomes the stories. They live on after him. And in that way, he becomes immortal."