Guys, we graduate in two months......

So today it finally hit me. I'm graduating in two months.

I got up this morning, with full motivation to study for the multiple exams I have next week, but ended up getting a wave of motivation to start looking for jobs. I had started last weekend to compile all of my newspaper clips and update my resume and draft cover letters, but today I thought, I should start sending these out. It amazes me that not only have I officially started my application process, but I qualify for jobs out there. And good jobs too.

I applied to one job in Seattle, as mentioned in a previous entry, but also started looking in the D.C. area. There's a bunch of really good openings down there, and since I will be visiting D.C. next week for Spring Break, I thought it would be a good idea to try to get a few interviews while I'm there. Doesn't hurt to try, right?

I'm actually really excited to start my new chapter. Thinking about it makes me shake a little, but it's ok. I'm not nervous, but anxious. I can't wait to get out there and start my life and to do something in the world. As of recent, I've been getting this feeling that I'm ready to graduate. It's terrifying, to think that in two months I have to start living on my own, taking care of myself, doing everything I can to become a full adult, but I'm ok with it. This whole process is so exciting.

After applying to four jobs, I decided to take a break and start working on my application for commencement speaker, which is due next week. As part of the application, I had to write a letter saying why I thought I should be the speaker. As I was writing this, I started to cry. I don't really know why, fully, but something hit me. Maybe it was the realization of how much I've done in four years, and the reassurance that my accomplishments will get me somewhere. Maybe it was realizing that the four best years of my life so far are almost over, and that despite my efforts, I won't be in a situation like this ever again. Whatever it was, it hit me hard.

But I'm ok. I feel a wave of calmness, a reassurance that everything is going to be ok. I can't really explain it. I'm calm. I'm ready to go, ready to do something. I've done so much here already, and I'm only 22. It amazes me that I've already done so much and accomplished so much in my life, and yet I'm still so young. Think of what I can do still. Think of everything that I will do. I would be foolish not to be excited.

So that's my story. That's been my day. I don't know what motivated me to write this all down, but my emotions are strong today and my eagerness to start a real life are present. I'm ready,and  I'm excited.